Is it like this? I mean.. life.. my perception towards life
is getting worsen day by day. I remembered all those times back then when I was
younger than today. I was so happy. I was truly happy. I love people around me.
Even my previous entry here, I could feel how happy I was before by reading it.
but today, I changed. I am afraid of the world. I am afraid of people. I am overthinking
at every step I take while I was living. I am worried about every aspects of my
life. In term of my study, about friends, even love. Where is the old me? I really
need the old me. I am too anxious of living. This feels killing me. I am
ashamed of my God. Yes, I do believe in Allah but I cannot run from this feel. I
swear I am trying so hard to get rid of this feeling.
Is this my toxic trait? Am I born with this trait? I don’t believe in
people aside from my family. I am faking of my reaction towards people. They were
fooled by me. By my positive side. I am sorry
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